Had fun on Wed with the bodohs and intellectuals again. Heh. Met in the morning to go kbox lunch, finally, and sang our hearts out. But, Calvin, that bodoh head, refused to sing into the mic though he knew almost all the songs. Kookoo. Anyway, Denise came to meet after that and we spent an hr in toys'r us. Played around with the toys, and even played soccer. Haha, made a lot or noise and we kept laughing. Were a tad tired after that and Denise kept saying it's cos we haven't had PE in a long time. Heh.

Went to eat Sakae's buffet lunch at 3 and we were cheated when they sent us the dessert. They put Mochi Dumplings as their dessert and we assumed that it's Mochi ice-cream. Who knew that it really is dumpling, with tau sa inside. So we had no choice but to force ourselves to finish it all. Haha.

Walked ard TM and Century Sq and I did a bodoh thing while queueing in the toilet. Bodohly, I asked Jia Hong what's her chinese name. Haha, that's the most bodoh thing I did that day. Corrin even said I can be the Bodoh Queen. Haha.

Keeping myself occupied so as to stop thinking

Yeah!!! The exams are finally over and the holidays are here! I have officially finished this sem and all I hope right now is that there are no major drops in my coursework grades like last yr. Going to enjoy myself for the next two mths, though I have not considered how.. Haha. But I need to think abt my SIP thing, and I still do not know where I can apply to. Hmm... Any good suggestions?

Anyway, looking forward to meeting up with all my friends this hols, and hope I can do sth meaningful besides working and working and tuitioning. Just thinking abt last hols makes me sad. Haha.

Anyway, just to mention sth. Was feeling quite moody last week, esp on Mon and Tues. That's why I didn't really update my blog last week, except for the pictures. I'm ok now, at least I don't have the exams weighing on my mind now. It's one, no four burdens off my mind, and i'm currently trying to forget abt whatever that is making me moody. Although it's to no avail, hope that I can succeed one day.

Sometimes I question my self-worth ..

Here are the photos we took on the last day of school with the tourism tutors..

With the very crazy and funny Ms Ivy Tan

With the other crazy tutor Ms Grace Chia

Had one of the best days of my life today. Spent the entire day laughing, giggling, cracking up, while waiting for lecture, during lecture, during tutorials, during break, on our way to TM, and in Mac's. From 9 till 5. Full-time laughers all of us. I really cannot imagine another day out with them. Bodohs and Intellectuals. Haha. We laughed abt almost everything we could. Each other, things that happened during our childhood, our notorious clsmates, everything. Really really enjoyed my last day in sch. Cos there were no pressures, no deadlines, no stress. And the company was really great. I really hope that our plans to go Sentosa for 3D2N can fall through.

The semester has finally come to an end. And it hasn't exactly been an easy one. The new things, new people we had to get used to; the many many deadlines; the atrocious tutor. Amazing that we got through this sem in one piece, but the next 2 wil be worse. Haha.

Anyway, I really thank God for all the blessings He has given me this semester. Thank Him for my grp mates who were great. Couldn't have done it without them. Thank Him for the Bodohs and the Intellectuals. Thank Him for the great tutors. Thank Him for the chance to work with Subway. Thank Him for the laughs, and bonding. And for the stress and pressure that made me perform. Thank you God.

He's drinking cold Corona

Feels like his getting older

Now and noticing how he's finding

Grey hairs left in the shower

Tattoos fade by the hour

And he can't understand these feelings

Why life is getting him down

He used to smile now he frowns

And cries inside

Its been this way for a while

And he can't seem to put things right

When life has been unkind

And you're losing your mind

Look in the mirror afraid of what you'll find

It feels like time's not on your side

He doesn't like to mention

Applying for his pension

So his children don't know he's

Into a mid-life crisis

He cant afford the prices for

The new kitchen floor he's buying

He's been a drunk all his life

Two kids, a dog and a wife

He doesn't know

And in the daytime he just sits and watches television shows

When life has been unkind

And you're losing your mind

Look in the mirror afraid of what you'll find

It feels like time's not on your side

Dont know why but somehow

The ones you love you hate now,

You feel down and blue

Look at what you've thrown away

They stood beside you all the way

Now its too late, its too late for you

When life has been unkind

And you're losing your mind

Look in the mirror afraid of what you'll find

It feels like time's not on your side

- The Ballad of Paul K - McFly

Went to granduncle's hse on Sunday to visit him cos he was ill with senile dementia. He already had it last CNY and I remembered when he cried when he realised he couldn't recognise all of us. I had forgotten until my sis brought it up. I have forgotten how I felt last CNY, but as I saw the condition he was in last Sunday, I couldn't help but feel my heart going out to him. His mother, who is my great-grandmother had senile dementia too before she passed away. But her condition was totally different. At least, she was happy during her illness and even her last days. But my grand-uncle, he was just, there. You know?

When we reached there he was just slouching on the sofa listening to some music. And he couldn't talk, because the muscles in his tongue had contracted. And his wife told us that one day, she let him help in plucking some things so as to exercise his arms. It was an easy task, but he couldn't do it. And he got so frustrated with himself that he went to the room to cry. When his wife said this, my parents, sis, aunt and uncle laughed a little. But I just couldn't cos I could imagine his frustration at that time of not being able to do such a simple thing. And of cos we were talking about him throughout the visit cos he was the purpose of the visit. But he was right there in the living room with us! Although he couldn't talk, he could hear! And they were talking as if he wasn't there. It was, for a lack of better words, degrading.

The aim of this entry is not to criticise whoever's actions, but to tell you about something that almost made me cry last Sunday.

Haven't blogged in a long time. Haven't had 10hrs of slp in a long time. Haven't read a novel straight for 3 or 4 hrs. Haven't slacked in front of the computer or the tv in ages.

What if I took the initiative back then? What if I took it now? What if it was me? What if I could turn back time and begin all over again?

Taking silly photos ..
After the tourism presentation ..

Really enjoyed the past few days of CNY. I always enjoy time with my relatives. Played mahjong for the past 3 days, which is a difference from what we played in the past. You know, before we all knew how to play mahjong, we played blackjack. Not much to say, just that i appreciate these 3 days of reprieve from my school work. Thank God these 3 days came in time. Gotta work on my projects after blogging this. Just hope that I can concentrate. Haha.

The week before that was quite hectic, esp the last few days, thurs and fri. Esp Friday. We had the tourism presentation in e afternoon and 3 other deadlines. Amazingly, we managed to meet them all. After e presentation, went to PS first to buy sth, then met cc and rena and waited for the rest of them. Went to Swensen's for dinner. Ate the apple and banana crumble for dessert. Nice. A little sweet, but still.

Time passes so quickly. In 2 weeks time, sch term will be over and it'll be the study week. And my year 2 in poly is over just like that. I can't believe I'm gonna be a senior from next sem onwards. And i can't believe i'm turning 19 in May. Ar!!!!!!